This album changed my life: Fiona Apple’s When the Pawn...

Ailbhe Reddy: The 1999 release was groundbreaking to me – it’s so honest and self-aware

Ailbhe Reddy plays Whelan’s in Dublin tonight
Ailbhe Reddy plays Whelan’s in Dublin tonight

This album changed how I write and how I think about songwriting. It talks about mental health, failed romances and Fiona Apple’s relationship with herself.

It made me feel heartbroken and liberated all within one spin. I began compulsively listening to it on repeat two years ago. I had just released my first EP and I was going through a break-up.

The album expressed things which I had trouble with: my lack of faith in myself within relationships, mental health and honesty. I’m a big fan of Jon Brion’s film scores, so I adored the production.

Almost chaotic

The song Fast as You Can is a masterpiece to me, it's almost chaotic. She vacillates between sensitively explaining she cannot be in a relationship, to comparing herself to a parasite that needs to be scratched out from beneath the skin, to almost mockingly saying "my pretty mouth will frame the phrases that will disprove your faith in man".

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This album isn’t about a break-up or another person. This album is about her inner life and how it affects those around her. That was groundbreaking to me, it’s so honest and self-aware.

Ailbhe Reddy plays Whelan’s in Dublin tonight, Saturday, October 21st.