A Co Laois father of seven will be sentenced later this month for the continued sexual abuse and rape of his young daughter over 30 years ago.
The man, who cannot be named to protect the identity of his now 43-year-old victim, pleaded guilty at the Central Criminal Court to two counts of rape and two counts of indecent assault on dates between July 1981 and July 1987 when his daughter was aged between nine and 15 years old. He has no previous convictions.
The woman who has since moved to County Carlow first made a complaint to gardaí in May 2013.
She and her mother, who had by that time divorced the man, had months earlier confronted him about the abuse. He did not deny it but was hostile in his response to the women.
The man was arrested in June 2014 and admitted to sexually abusing and raping his daughter.
He described “making love” to his eldest daughter when she was too young to consent to it. He claimed that she never resisted him and denied ever having forced himself on her.
Ms Justice Margaret Heneghan remanded the man in continuing custody and adjourned sentencing until July 13th. The man had been registered a sex offender when he pleaded guilty earlier this month.
The woman stated in a victim impact report, which was read into court she contemplated suicide at 11 or 12 years of age. She said she had hoped this would lead her mother to question what had been wrong with her and her father would have to confess.
She recalled sitting on the landing one day and seriously considering throwing herself off it. “I hated being a girl. I used to wish I was a boy. His ‘special girl’ came at such a price,” the woman stated before she said that the abuse turned her into a “pathetic wimp” who had been “tainted by this awful secret”.
She said her father had robbed her of her childhood, her teenage years and much of her adult life that she would never get back.
The woman said her father was violent and hard to live with. “He was only affectionate to me when he made me do special things,” she said before she added that she hated him.
She described being left at home by her mother to complete household chores and said her father would take those opportunities to sexually abuse and rape her.
She said she felt she would get into trouble if she told anyone and said her father would “shake his fist at me” and threaten to kill her any time she suggested she would disclose the abuse to someone.
She described being in abusive relationships as an adult directly as a result of her father’s actions.
“I was tormented, living on my nerves even now. Your parents are supposed to protect you, not do something like this to you,” the woman continued.
“I am not sure I will ever get over it. I certainly will never forget it. I feel like I am not worthy of love or being loved,” she said before she added that her father had never apologised for what he did.
John Peart SC, defending told Ms Justice Heneghan that he had clear instructions from his client that he is ashamed of his behaviour and apologises “from the bottom of his heart for what he did to his daughter”.
A local detective garda stationed in a Laois town told Will Fennelly BL, prosecuting that the woman told gardaí her father first molested her when she was about nine years old.
She described him coming into her bedroom while she was lying in bed, putting his hands under her blankets and molesting her. She couldn’t recall him saying anything and she lay there frozen.
The woman said shortly after that the family moved to a more rural location in Laois where the abuse continued.
The detective agreed with Mr Fennelly that the woman suppressed a lot of her memories so she could continue with her daily life so she had difficulty recollecting each incident.
She outlined another occasion during which her mother was out of the house and her siblings were outside playing. Her father cornered her in the kitchen of their home and forced her to perform oral sex on him.
She recalled a feeling of sickness and said that this happened on a number of occasions after that.
The woman said during the abuse her father would reassure her how much he loved her and tell her she was his favourite girl.
She told gardaí she felt continually under threat in her home before she recalled two incidents of rape around the time of her Junior Cert.
She said he once raped her in an upstairs bedroom during which she struggled with him.
A second time he raped her in a downstairs bathroom where she again tried to push him off telling him it was wrong and he shouldn’t be doing it.
The detective said the woman began to try and avoid her father and would often lock herself in the bathroom when her mother left the house.
She later moved to the UK to study and as an adult received a call from her mother concerning another family member. During that call the woman disclosed the abuse she had suffered as a child and she and her mother arranged to meet her father.
They later met with him at Heuston Station in Dublin where they confronted him. The man did not deny what he had done although he was hostile in his response to the women.
The detective confirmed that she interviewed other family members during the course of the investigation and the general profile that emerged was one of a very unhappy, dysfunctional family.